| Decided It might be benifical for others in simuliar situations if I came back and updated this.
The guild I was recruited by in my last post turned out to be a bust... Some management issues (overly controlling, abrasive, back biting type drama as well) So I ended up leaving the day after we downed hydross.
Upon leaving I accepted an open invite from a guild I had apped with several weeks prior. The guild entered BT for the first time just days after I joined and together we have accomplished 4/9 in around a months time.
I didnt know anyone in the guild at all when I joined so it has been rather uncomfortable anxiety wise. Find myself going all emo from time to time because the pressure I feel is nuts.. Alot of changes to adapt to... Skipped a whole tier of content, all new people, their expectations of me, my expectations of myself, and some apparent tank to tank competiton which I'm not fond of.
I'm really quick to go into self ass kicking mode when I screw up, even when it doesnt result in a disaster. Have to work on that.
We are raiding 5 days a week and what time I don't spend in a raid I spend working on dps badge gear, farming mats for food, flasks, elixirs etc so it is a bit tiring. Kinda taking it's toll on me physically this past week and a half so I am having to limit the time I'm logged in outside of raid times.
But in the end I am very excited to get the oppurtunity to experience T6 and have no regrets about taking the step into a serious raiding guild.
Ringthane, how are you doing? Any luck in combatting the anxiety?
Hope you are finding yourself more willing to take some steps in that direction..
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