God wants me to keep smoking
Posted 09-23-2008 at 11:05 AM by salihe
Wow, aren't ya'll lucky...two blog posts in one day, and only an hour or so between em.
So yah, I've come to the conclusion that god wants me to keep smoking. I'd reached my own conclusion that I was going to try and quit, yet again. I called my Dr, had him call me in a prescription for a month's supply of patches, and bought a bottle of 200 toothpicks (for the oral fetish thing....*cough*....yeah). So, 3 days ago, I got down to the last smoke in my pack, and i was mentally preparing to smoke it and be done, but then I remembered that I'd bought a pack of Djarum Blacks a while back (for those who don't know what those are, they're clove cigarettes, ie ground up cloves mixed in with tobacco...yummy as hell...even the filters are sweet), and there was still like 4 or 5 in there. So I got down on my hands and knees to try and find them.
I failed to find them, but what did I find? A brand-new, unopened pack of my normal brand. Ok, that wasn't too surprising.
So yesterday, I got down to the last smoke in that pack, and once again, got down on hands and knees to look for the Djarums (there's a lot of shit on my floor).
I didn't find them, but what did I find? Another pack of my normal brand, this one opened, but with only one missing.
So, today rolls around. There's one left. I've pretty much given up on the thought of finding the Djarums, but it occured to me to go give my bedroom a cursory look-over, and what do I find? A pack of my normal brand, 4/5ths full, lying under my bed.
Ere'go, my conclusion is that god wants me to keep smoking. Never mind the fact that I'm agnostic. I've always imagined finding a magic pack of smokes that always had one more in it, no matter how many times you smoked the "last one", and it seems I've found a fountain of tobacco, as it were, in my own apartment. Either that, or it's a testament as to how incredibly messy and disorganized my apartment really is.
Anyway, I'm thinking the fountain will be pretty dried out by the time this pack is gone, and it'll be the patch from then on out.
Here's hoping it goes as well as I'm...hoping.
Yeah.
Wish me luck. Again.
So yah, I've come to the conclusion that god wants me to keep smoking. I'd reached my own conclusion that I was going to try and quit, yet again. I called my Dr, had him call me in a prescription for a month's supply of patches, and bought a bottle of 200 toothpicks (for the oral fetish thing....*cough*....yeah). So, 3 days ago, I got down to the last smoke in my pack, and i was mentally preparing to smoke it and be done, but then I remembered that I'd bought a pack of Djarum Blacks a while back (for those who don't know what those are, they're clove cigarettes, ie ground up cloves mixed in with tobacco...yummy as hell...even the filters are sweet), and there was still like 4 or 5 in there. So I got down on my hands and knees to try and find them.
I failed to find them, but what did I find? A brand-new, unopened pack of my normal brand. Ok, that wasn't too surprising.
So yesterday, I got down to the last smoke in that pack, and once again, got down on hands and knees to look for the Djarums (there's a lot of shit on my floor).
I didn't find them, but what did I find? Another pack of my normal brand, this one opened, but with only one missing.
So, today rolls around. There's one left. I've pretty much given up on the thought of finding the Djarums, but it occured to me to go give my bedroom a cursory look-over, and what do I find? A pack of my normal brand, 4/5ths full, lying under my bed.
Ere'go, my conclusion is that god wants me to keep smoking. Never mind the fact that I'm agnostic. I've always imagined finding a magic pack of smokes that always had one more in it, no matter how many times you smoked the "last one", and it seems I've found a fountain of tobacco, as it were, in my own apartment. Either that, or it's a testament as to how incredibly messy and disorganized my apartment really is.
Anyway, I'm thinking the fountain will be pretty dried out by the time this pack is gone, and it'll be the patch from then on out.
Here's hoping it goes as well as I'm...hoping.
Yeah.
Wish me luck. Again.
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....or god wanted you to stop being a slob and pickup after yourself :-)Posted 09-23-2008 at 12:50 PM by loquatious 
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Better yet? Both! Clean up your apartment, and you receive an unlimited supply of of your preferred brand of smokes - courtesy of God!Posted 09-23-2008 at 01:00 PM by Nayre - Well, under normal circumstances, I would keep my apartment spotless. I used to spend a few hours every weekend going over everything with a fine-toothed comb, to the point of being mildly ocd about it. But, in teh last couple years, health issues have prevented me from continuing my obsessive organizing and whatnot, sadly, so it's really not my fault that my place ends up looking like a bomb hit it. The health issues are the main reason I'm hoping to quit to begin with.
Something about that strikes me as ironic, but I can't quite place my finger on it.....Posted 09-23-2008 at 06:58 PM by salihe - Oh my....I'm typing this with the last smoke from the pack I found under my bed in my mouth.
Will it really be the last, or will I find yet another pack lying in some unlikely place?
Somehow I doubt it, but if god really wants me to continue smoking, I'm sure he'll come through :PPosted 09-24-2008 at 07:09 AM by salihe - This Thursday will be 2 weeks without smoking for me. I had patches that I bought with the intention of quitting some time ago, so it was just deciding the right time to do it. I decided to do it before family vacation. My wife doesn't smoke, and I don't smoke much around my daugthers, so that made it easier. I tried to avoid the smoking areas while we were gone, and suprisingly, as long as I have the patch on, I don't have issues even around smokers now. Find something to do, or you'll never make it. I joined the gym, and started going ocd with my diet. I left for vacation between 215 and 220. This morning I weighed in at 204. I'm killing 2 birds with one stone (with any luck).
Posted 09-24-2008 at 12:24 PM by smacks - Without getting too preachy....work with the same woman for 6 years, 6 days a week, 8-10 hours a day...then watch cancer kill her in less than 3 months.
Posted 09-24-2008 at 01:48 PM by Tatt -
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kretek#...nd_IngredientsQuote:Djarum Black cigarettes sold in United States, Europe, Canada and South American countries have 10–12mg tar and 1mg nicotine, as indicated on the pack. This level of tar and nicotine is comparable to the majority of other regular or "full-flavor" cigarettes available. However, Djarum Black cigarettes produced for consumption in Indonesia contain a significantly higher quantity of Tar and Nicotine, 25mg and 1.6mg respectively. In Canada, Djarum Black cigarettes are listed as containing 42.2–76mg of tar and 1.88–3.39mg of nicotine, a significant amount more than most other cigarettes.
The venous plasma nicotine and carbon monoxide levels from 10 smokers were tested after smoking kreteks and were found to be similar to non-clove brands of cigarettes, such as Marlboro.[7]
Rats were given equal inhalation doses of conventional tobacco cigarettes and kreteks over a short period. Those that had inhaled kreteks did not appear to show worse health effects compared to those that had inhaled conventional cigarettes.[8] The study was repeated with a 14-day exposure and kreteks again did not produce worse health effects than conventional cigarettes.[9]
The eugenol in clove smoke causes a numbing of the throat which can diminish the gag reflex in users, leading researchers to recommend caution for individuals with respiratory infections.[10] There have also been a few cases of aspiration pneumonitis in individuals with normal respiratory tracts possibly because of the diminished gag reflex. Researchers recommend that people who have an allergy to cloves should avoid kreteks.
I quit smoking a year ago. It's not God talking to you it's the Nicotine. And no matter if you have the willpower to quit or not that Nicotine will talk to you every day of your life for the rest of your life.
I quit cold turkey. I have no regrets about it, but I still crave it every day, especially on a particularly stressful or eventful day. It gets easier with time, but you have to find a different way to ignore and deal with the craving, sometimes it will be overwhelming and you have to take yourself out of situations that trigger the craving, or learn how to deal with them better.
I'm a nurse, I take care of people who smoke and have minimal health problems, and those who end up dying because of their habit.
When I stopped smoking I gained 20 pounds in a year, my doctor told me he'd rather I be 20 pounds heavier than continue to smoke.
It's a personal choice for some. I had to make the choice for me, my daughter and my husband. I'm glad I did.
Keza
p.s. Did I mention the craving never goes away?Posted 09-24-2008 at 03:51 PM by Keza
