Motivation

I'm in a bit of a black mood these days...

I've pretty much lost my motivation in gearing up my characters.

If I could find a good, solid raid guild, even if it was on a different server, I think I'd be happier... but once again, I don't have much motivation to look for it.

These days, I don't raid. I don't enjoy running Heroics every day, so badge upgrades come slowly, if at all. I'm not a PvPer -- I've been into an arena exactly 5 times, and the most I get out of Battlegrounds is frustration. It took me a good month of sporadic play to get my S1 shield.

My paladin is in a different spot than my warrior -- even if I wanted to run Heroics on her, I couldn't. She doesn't have the health pool to survive a Heroic without a very good healer and at the very least moderate CC, which sorta ruins the point in using my paladin to run Heroics in the first place.

I've been pugging occasionally, but it's usually more of an exercise in frustration than not. My healers in the average pick-up group don't like me when I tank entire mob packs, but I simply do not get the damage-intake I need to keep the run smooth otherwise. Drinking after every pull is... frustrating.

A week or two ago, I had a case of loot drama which also served to make me want to stay the hell away from pugs. I was in a normal Steam Vaults run on my paladin with a good friend of mine who usually do not run instances (not that he's not skilled, he just doesn't do it often). When we started the group, we had a Prot warrior (who was the one to invite me), a warlock and another paladin who was healing. We made it to the first boss before the warlock DCd, then wiped to the boss because the healer just plain sucked. We replaced the warlock with a warrior... Urgh. Another try at the boss. I had marked the boss "skull" because I was planning on simply tanking the adds, but the new warrior shouted "kill adds first!!" and charged one of them, which made him die. We wiped, though that wasn't the reason. The paladin left at that point because he didn't have time (we had taken quite a while to get to the boss) and the Prot warrior decided to go as well. We got in a priest and a mage, and they were decent. We managed to down the boss, though not until after another wipe (apparently the priest couldn't move when hit by a hurricane). The run went mostly smooth after that, though the warrior kept proving how much of an idiot he was ("I have epics, that means I'm good" <-- direct quote. His epics were S1. He also said, "I'm almost exalted with this place, I know everything"). Anyway, we finally got to the last boss, and lo and behold: [item]Devilshark Cape[/item] dropped! I was pleased; the main reason why I went to Steam Vaults was that cloak.

Then the idiot warrior needed on it.

Sigh.

On a different note, I've begun building a world for a D&D game I've wanted to start, and while it's still mostly loose ideas in my head, it's starting to come together, which is a good thing. I'm not the best DM -- I'm not much good at improvisation -- but I'm the only shot we have at getting a game going around here, ever since the only DM we knew moved away. I have the main villain and his desires down, I just need... well... the rest of the plot.