Long time no speak
Posted 08-08-2008 at 12:01 PM by Bullwrinkle
Its been a while, TS'ers.
With WOTLK fast approaching, as I watch my guild blindly marching towards the same end as my pre-bc guild, it makes me get a little sentimental with a touch of mania. Its only a matter of time before history repeats itself, and this casual gearing machine of a guild I am in folds upon itself, and it just sickens me to hear yet another raider is leaving. Another gap in the roster to fill with someone, who may be an eager beaver, is grossly unprepared for what we're doing.
The last few months for us has been a violent dance with every issue a guild can have, in hyper speed. About 6 weeks ago, we lost 6 of our core raiders in one weekend, which left us handicapped enough we werent able to even make a full balanced raid for nearly two weeks. We've staggered back on the horse and managed to drop Archi, and Gurtogg, but we've wasted the last two weeks doing Kael/Vashj for our replacements. (Wasting may or may not be the right word, but 3.5 hours of wipes on Kael pretty much shot any time we'd have to attempt RoS)
I am starting to resent all the undergeared people in our guild, with how our loot council is, they will get enough gear to be adequate, but they always want more, everything. They think because they show up, they deserve to get every piece of gear they dream about, while we put any thought of progress on the backburner. The clock is ticking, our time is almost up. Every week we dont attempt progression is another week closer to WOTLK, and the demise of our raiding, and possibly guild.
I guess what really got me thinking about it, is our main prot pally has apped to the top guild on the server. (They had a prot pally spot, and he may or may not get in) I've been guilded with the guy for going on 3 years now, and I know that we both regretted never seeing all of Naxx at 60. I can't resent the guy for trying to see the content when it is still applicable, it just makes me rethink why I am even bothering grinding away week after week to help gear up people who arent worth the 2 void crystals we lost out on.
I'm tired of being in a guild where we need filler spots.
I'm tired of the filler spots thinking they matter.
I'm tired of not wanting to log in, because it will just be more T5 wasted time.
More or less, I am just tired. I want things to change, and I think I am burning myself out trying so hard to make this guild into something it isn't. I used to love my guild, I used to love everyone in it. Now? I rarely log on outside raid nights, I log on other vents because I dont want to talk to our new people that I resent so much. I'm slowly detaching myself, and I dont know if I should take a break now, or just stop pretending and leave. Such is life.
With WOTLK fast approaching, as I watch my guild blindly marching towards the same end as my pre-bc guild, it makes me get a little sentimental with a touch of mania. Its only a matter of time before history repeats itself, and this casual gearing machine of a guild I am in folds upon itself, and it just sickens me to hear yet another raider is leaving. Another gap in the roster to fill with someone, who may be an eager beaver, is grossly unprepared for what we're doing.
The last few months for us has been a violent dance with every issue a guild can have, in hyper speed. About 6 weeks ago, we lost 6 of our core raiders in one weekend, which left us handicapped enough we werent able to even make a full balanced raid for nearly two weeks. We've staggered back on the horse and managed to drop Archi, and Gurtogg, but we've wasted the last two weeks doing Kael/Vashj for our replacements. (Wasting may or may not be the right word, but 3.5 hours of wipes on Kael pretty much shot any time we'd have to attempt RoS)
I am starting to resent all the undergeared people in our guild, with how our loot council is, they will get enough gear to be adequate, but they always want more, everything. They think because they show up, they deserve to get every piece of gear they dream about, while we put any thought of progress on the backburner. The clock is ticking, our time is almost up. Every week we dont attempt progression is another week closer to WOTLK, and the demise of our raiding, and possibly guild.
I guess what really got me thinking about it, is our main prot pally has apped to the top guild on the server. (They had a prot pally spot, and he may or may not get in) I've been guilded with the guy for going on 3 years now, and I know that we both regretted never seeing all of Naxx at 60. I can't resent the guy for trying to see the content when it is still applicable, it just makes me rethink why I am even bothering grinding away week after week to help gear up people who arent worth the 2 void crystals we lost out on.
I'm tired of being in a guild where we need filler spots.
I'm tired of the filler spots thinking they matter.
I'm tired of not wanting to log in, because it will just be more T5 wasted time.
More or less, I am just tired. I want things to change, and I think I am burning myself out trying so hard to make this guild into something it isn't. I used to love my guild, I used to love everyone in it. Now? I rarely log on outside raid nights, I log on other vents because I dont want to talk to our new people that I resent so much. I'm slowly detaching myself, and I dont know if I should take a break now, or just stop pretending and leave. Such is life.
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